Monday, February 17, 2014
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Good Brain health starts with...
It looks like it has been forever since I last blogged on here. Time flies for sure. I think I am going to start a series of blog posts on what good brain health looks like for me. It is not what I have learned, but what I am currently learning. If we are not learning and being stretched in life by someone or something, we probably aren't growing. Life is a process for me of adjusting and changing to learn what is healthy for my repaired brain.
I have been realizing how I must exercise on a regular basis. It is not an optional thing, yet I have always treated it that way. I knew I should for reasons like losing weight, eating healthy, etc.; however, I never believed it to be mandatory for my brain. I am finding that to remain healthy and functioning to the best it can, my brain really needs it. I am learning to change from the mindset of "just losing weight" to a different thought process of how it is vital for my emotional, spiritual, and mental well being.
I think my view before was to look at it as a chore or such a negative thing. At one time, I was exercising just for behavior modification instead of lifestyle change for the long term. I am now focusing on how much healthier it makes me feel emotionally, and that it can't be just for the short term. Most of us can do or change anything just for a season. It is vital for my brain's health to make the small yet intentional steps to change some deep rooted life long patterns.
So far in the last month, slow progress has been made. Someone told me recently that it's not a sprint, but a gradual process of growing and stretching. This applies to not only an exercise program, but really to life in general. It reminds me of the quote I once heard from Chuck Swindoll that says "God wants to use you, stumbling and all....but he can't do so if you refuse to get up!"
What deep rooted patterns in your life are you wanting to change?
I have been realizing how I must exercise on a regular basis. It is not an optional thing, yet I have always treated it that way. I knew I should for reasons like losing weight, eating healthy, etc.; however, I never believed it to be mandatory for my brain. I am finding that to remain healthy and functioning to the best it can, my brain really needs it. I am learning to change from the mindset of "just losing weight" to a different thought process of how it is vital for my emotional, spiritual, and mental well being.
I think my view before was to look at it as a chore or such a negative thing. At one time, I was exercising just for behavior modification instead of lifestyle change for the long term. I am now focusing on how much healthier it makes me feel emotionally, and that it can't be just for the short term. Most of us can do or change anything just for a season. It is vital for my brain's health to make the small yet intentional steps to change some deep rooted life long patterns.
So far in the last month, slow progress has been made. Someone told me recently that it's not a sprint, but a gradual process of growing and stretching. This applies to not only an exercise program, but really to life in general. It reminds me of the quote I once heard from Chuck Swindoll that says "God wants to use you, stumbling and all....but he can't do so if you refuse to get up!"
What deep rooted patterns in your life are you wanting to change?
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Saturday, August 18, 2012
My New Reality
I had to re-post this picture that I saw on Facebook. It is very much my world, and is for so many others who have had brain injuries. My personality changed the most when I hit my head a few years after the brain surgery. Changes like this have surprisingly become my biggest adjustment. I relate to this picture since I was left brained a majority of my life. I now acknowledge how right brain dominant I am becoming. It is new and different, but I am learning to embrace my present reality.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Calvin and Hobbes is the best!
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I had to share Calvin and Hobbes today because it makes me smile!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
You are His miracle
With the anniversary of my brain surgery approaching, it always causes me to reflect on life. I came across a CD of mine from a long time ago called "Never Be The Same" by Tony Melendez . (He was born with no arms and plays the instruments with his feet!) The song "You are His Miracle" brought much healing to me during that season in life many years ago, and so I wanted to share the lyrics. They are very powerful and bring a renewed peace to me. I pray you feel a renewed and fresh sense of God's love for you in whatever season of life you are in right now.
YOU ARE HIS MIRACLE
Words & Music by:
Doug Eltzroth
She fights the crowd of her own town
The very streets her friends walk down
She’s sick, she’s dying, they all know.
Exhausted wisdom of the world
She’s still afflicted, Where is the cure?
“Just touch the border of His clothes…”
There’s no affliction, He cannot ease
There is no captive, He can’t release
There is no wrong, He cannot right
There is no lust, He cannot tame
There is no cripple, He cannot teach to walk,
To run, to dance, to fly.
Chorus
You are His miracle,
keep drawing nearer
You are His miracle,
it’s becoming clearer
You are His miracle, a
few more steps
Reach out your hand
and you will see
You are his miracle,
ready to be.
Her fingertips touched garment thread
Her childlike faith at last has led
Her to the very source of health
He turns and looks her eye to eye
It’s God himself and He replies:
“Your simple trust has made you well…”
There’s no heart torn He cannot bind
There is no lost He cannot find
There is no mute He cannot teach to talk
To shout, to laugh, to sing……
There is no storm He cannot
whisper “Peace, be still”
There is no giant in
His name you cannot kill
And there’s no hold on
you He cannot sever
Nothing is too great -not
now, not ever
Chorus
You are His miracle,
keep drawing nearer
You are His miracle,
it’s becoming clearer
You are His miracle, a
few more steps
Reach out your hand
and you will see
You are his miracle,
ready to be.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Valentine's Day!
This was written by a friend of mine (K.S.) and posted with her permission:
You cannot outgive love- love come from God and God’s love is infinite. Not only is it infinite- but it is deeper and higher and wider and broader than you could ever imagine. Love rejoices for what God has already done and the evidence in this of all He can do.
Love…
Love plants gardens in the hearts of people…and doesn’t stop watering even though sometimes it’s a long growing season. Love counts blessings not minutes while standing in line at the checkout lane with a clerk who’s training. Love walks softly beside feet that are too small to take big strides or too aged and worn to clip quickly along.
Love is patient.
Love rakes the leaves in someone else’s yard. Love gives the benefit of the doubt. Love gives not because but before it is asked to. Love does it whether or not it’s convenient to do.
Love is kind.
Love knows joy and contentment because love trusts in the One who controls all things, and love can cheer watching someone else succeed. Love knows there is not a limit to the number of dreams that can come true or the amazing things God can do, and love rejoices with those who rejoice. Love sees through lenses of gratitude not lenses of comparison.
Love does not envy.
Love doesn’t act in order to look like a better spouse or parent or neighbor or person- love acts no matter who is or isn’t watching. Love doesn’t look back at all it has done- it looks forward to all it can do.
Love does not boast. Love is not proud.
Love listens…more than it advises, Love assumes your best intentions. Love answers the same question- three times without using an “I’ve explained this before” type of tone.
Love is not rude.
Love asks how it may help more than telling you how it may help. Love is real good at putting itself right in your shoes. When love shares a cookie- you get to choose which half you want.
Love is not self seeking.
Love can smile as it digs through the trash can for magnet letters or car keys a child was “putting away”. Love knows more about perspective than entitlement. Love knows it’s one thing to feel an emotion but another thing to act foolishly upon it.
Love is not easily angered.
Love is label blind- it does not show partiality- it just acts. Love is not focused on perfection but more so on grace. Since love is a way not a contest- there’s no scorekeeping.
Love keeps no records of wrongs.
You cannot outgive love- love come from God and God’s love is infinite. Not only is it infinite- but it is deeper and higher and wider and broader than you could ever imagine. Love rejoices for what God has already done and the evidence in this of all He can do.
Love rejoices in truth.
“ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs….…(love) rejoices in truth.” I Corinthians 13:4,5,6b(NIV)
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
New semester- New class
Well, the Spring 2012 semester has started! Starting a class each semester always provides me with a little anxiety with worries that my memory will not hold up, I won't be able to balance work and school, etc. As the years have gone by I am learning to manage it and not be as stressed as I used to in the first few years of going back to school after the brain surgery.
This semester provides an interesting challenge from the start. My class is Behavior Modification which I am quite excited about for both personal and professional reasons. I think it will help me with my patients on a daily basis at the hospital, and down the road as I pursue the direction of neuro rehab.
The project for the class is to change a personal behavior - whether to decrease or increase. What have I chosen? To increase the use of my exercise bike!!!! This means I have to stop using it as a place to hang my clothes!!! :)
Looking forward to this challenge! I want it to be more than just a project. Praying it will be a long term change of positive direction for me and my health!
This semester provides an interesting challenge from the start. My class is Behavior Modification which I am quite excited about for both personal and professional reasons. I think it will help me with my patients on a daily basis at the hospital, and down the road as I pursue the direction of neuro rehab.
The project for the class is to change a personal behavior - whether to decrease or increase. What have I chosen? To increase the use of my exercise bike!!!! This means I have to stop using it as a place to hang my clothes!!! :)
Looking forward to this challenge! I want it to be more than just a project. Praying it will be a long term change of positive direction for me and my health!
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Reflection
20 Questions for a New Year’s Eve Reflection
1. What was the single best thing that happened this past year?2. What was the single most challenging thing that happened?
3. What was an unexpected joy this past year?
4. What was an unexpected obstacle?
5. Pick three words to describe 2011.
6. Pick three words your spouse would use to describe your 2011 (don’t ask them; guess based on how you think your spouse sees you).
7. Pick three words your spouse would use to describe their 2011 (again, without asking).
8. What were the best books you read this year?
9. With whom were your most valuable relationships?
10. What was your biggest personal change from January to December of this past year?
11. In what way(s) did you grow emotionally?
12. In what way(s) did you grow spiritually?
13. In what way(s) did you grow physically?
14. In what way(s) did you grow in your relationships with others?
15. What was the most enjoyable part of your work (both professionally and at home)?
16. What was the most challenging part of your work (both professionally and at home)?
17. What was your single biggest time waster in your life this past year?
18. What was the best way you used your time this past year?
19. What was biggest thing you learned this past year?
20. Create a phrase or statement that describes 2011 for you.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Thanksgiving Season
In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I am very grateful for how far I have come in my healing journey. My class this semester at Illinois State is going very well right now. I am thankful every day for the ability to go back to school and finish my degree despite the challenges that come with my brain injury.
Also, as an amusement to many of you, I must share something that I am learning to appreciate about my repaired brain. Every season when I get out my Christmas decorations, it is a surprise all over again. The main things like the tree, etc. I can recall......(Ok, my memory isn't THAT bad folks!) :) However, a lot of the decor I have forgotten from the year before. It is like opening a present for the first time - wondering what is in my Christmas box that I forgot. It is great to be re-surprised every year by items I forgot were there.
Many of my memory problems used to frustrate me and cause me much anxiety. I still have those moments, but I am learning to laugh more at what my memory can and cannot recall. It's moments like this that I'm content in this stage of my brain recovery and in this journey called LIFE.
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!
Also, as an amusement to many of you, I must share something that I am learning to appreciate about my repaired brain. Every season when I get out my Christmas decorations, it is a surprise all over again. The main things like the tree, etc. I can recall......(Ok, my memory isn't THAT bad folks!) :) However, a lot of the decor I have forgotten from the year before. It is like opening a present for the first time - wondering what is in my Christmas box that I forgot. It is great to be re-surprised every year by items I forgot were there.
Many of my memory problems used to frustrate me and cause me much anxiety. I still have those moments, but I am learning to laugh more at what my memory can and cannot recall. It's moments like this that I'm content in this stage of my brain recovery and in this journey called LIFE.
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Happy Anniversary
Happy 7th Anniversary to my repaired brain! Can't believe it has been 7 years. So much has changed. Since I'm currently learning to be positive and not focus on all negatives in my life - we will keep this post cheerful! No talking about the challenges of life with a brain injury.
One of the wonderful changes my new brain has given me is the freedom to drive. On a regular basis I stop to give thanks for how much of a blessing it is to have the ability to drive. Driving is certainly a privilege.
I was just telling some friends the other day that in the last year I think my memory is getting better. OK, I said "better" - not great! ( I feel the need to clarify that otherwise I will get some harassment later for that statement.) ;) For example, recently I noticed that I don't have to rely on my phone all the time like I used to. I can remember meetings/events coming up on my calender. Unlike the few years after the surgery, when if I didn't look at my phone - I would not remember ANYTHING! So that is praise to God for that.
I still give thanks for no major seizures since the brain surgery. I haven't even had an aura in several months which is very exciting for me. So to remain seizure free this long after the surgery is nothing short of a miracle since I used to have seizures every day.
Lastly, in just thinking of the day of the surgery which was 3 months after dad died, it was a year of much change. I again want to thank my family and friends for all they did for me before, during, and after the surgery/recovery. Yes, I still remember the day of the surgery and what went on in the OR - something a Neurodiagnostic tech never forgets! :) It was a long road to recovery and continues to be. Life is a journey of how to manage living with a brain injury. I would not be able to do it without the love, patience, and support I get from all of you!!!
One of the wonderful changes my new brain has given me is the freedom to drive. On a regular basis I stop to give thanks for how much of a blessing it is to have the ability to drive. Driving is certainly a privilege.
I was just telling some friends the other day that in the last year I think my memory is getting better. OK, I said "better" - not great! ( I feel the need to clarify that otherwise I will get some harassment later for that statement.) ;) For example, recently I noticed that I don't have to rely on my phone all the time like I used to. I can remember meetings/events coming up on my calender. Unlike the few years after the surgery, when if I didn't look at my phone - I would not remember ANYTHING! So that is praise to God for that.
I still give thanks for no major seizures since the brain surgery. I haven't even had an aura in several months which is very exciting for me. So to remain seizure free this long after the surgery is nothing short of a miracle since I used to have seizures every day.
Lastly, in just thinking of the day of the surgery which was 3 months after dad died, it was a year of much change. I again want to thank my family and friends for all they did for me before, during, and after the surgery/recovery. Yes, I still remember the day of the surgery and what went on in the OR - something a Neurodiagnostic tech never forgets! :) It was a long road to recovery and continues to be. Life is a journey of how to manage living with a brain injury. I would not be able to do it without the love, patience, and support I get from all of you!!!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
My Mom
This post is dedicated to my Mom. From the beginning of my seizures at 4 yrs old, my mom has been through it with me. When I was young, she always knew when I was having a seizure. She could look across a crowded room and tell that I was having a seizure. She always could tell before anyone else. I know she prayed me through many of those times. She was there for me when I couldn't drive as a 16 yr old and when the seizures came back as a young adult. She was there to support me.
Once when I was younger and sitting at the kitchen table, I had a seizure. She patiently waited for the seizure to stop and for me to come out of my confusion. Endless times during a complex partial seizure I would insist that I was fine and not seizing, yet clearly to her and others I was. She was a saint in my book for putting up with me when clearly I had no clue what was going on. What patience!
After the brain surgery she was there to rejoice with me that the seizures were gone. She was the first to notice changes in my personality and the lingering results of the resection. Though I am not around her as much anymore, she is always there to support and pray me through the rough times. She always is quick to recognize the struggles of having a brain injury. She noticed first some of my struggles with depression, and how it has and continues to change me as a person. The thing is that a mom's love never changes - no matter what way the child does. My mom is an inspiration to me of her consistent support and love she has given me both before, during, and now presently after my brain injury. I love you, Ma! Happy Mother's Day!
Once when I was younger and sitting at the kitchen table, I had a seizure. She patiently waited for the seizure to stop and for me to come out of my confusion. Endless times during a complex partial seizure I would insist that I was fine and not seizing, yet clearly to her and others I was. She was a saint in my book for putting up with me when clearly I had no clue what was going on. What patience!
After the brain surgery she was there to rejoice with me that the seizures were gone. She was the first to notice changes in my personality and the lingering results of the resection. Though I am not around her as much anymore, she is always there to support and pray me through the rough times. She always is quick to recognize the struggles of having a brain injury. She noticed first some of my struggles with depression, and how it has and continues to change me as a person. The thing is that a mom's love never changes - no matter what way the child does. My mom is an inspiration to me of her consistent support and love she has given me both before, during, and now presently after my brain injury. I love you, Ma! Happy Mother's Day!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Distractions
Recently I had an experience helping my mom learn the basics of her new computer. For those that know my mom, the thought of this is quite amusing. ;) She tries so hard and I admire her determination in trying to master email and the new computer. It was challenging for both of us, since I was walking her through it....over the phone. After the experience was over, then it caused me to reflect a little...
My issues with distraction and inattention have become more frequent than I realize since the brain surgery. Often ADHD and focus difficulties have a bad reputation in society and even in the world of medicine. The issue has gone from one extreme to the other in frequency of being diagnosed and treated. Over diagnosing and then not treating.....the extremes go back and forth. Somehow I believe that the patients get lost in the midst. I think this has been the case for me until recently.
I think in my case (and in a lot of patients) that attention issues are the last thing to receive attention. For me, it has been an afterthought. Instead of noticing that my attention problems are the likely cause of many other symptoms, we treat it the exact opposite. (I will keep you updated as to how this progresses.) :)
How does this tie in with my mom you ask? She struggles with the basics of a computer. I mean the REAL BASICS! For example, where to type the "www line" as she says. She was having difficulty signing into her email account on her new computer, so I had her describe for me what she was seeing. Instead of automatically noticing what you and I would see, she verbally told me what was getting her attention first. Her descriptions were interesting.
Picture with me the signon screen of a major email sight like yahoo, gmail, hotmail, etc. We think that it is clearly obvious what to do, but not to my mom. She describes for me what she sees on the monitor. "I see a "Web Search" and then a blank white space.", "Well, a blinking red box telling me about a membership for....." , and "I see some buttons that say games, TV, shopping....". So many distractions!!
It was quite awhile before I got her to ignore each of the pop-ups, flashing ads, etc., and to find the two little boxes that said "user name and password" next to them. :) By the time I verbally helped her to carefully type her email address and password clicked "log in", 45 minutes had passed. After it was over, she was worn out, I was happily relieved, and it caused me to reflect on the irony of it.
For someone like myself with a brain injury, distractions are constant. I used to be a very focused and attentive person, but now I am easily sidetracked. I am learning over the years tricks to help with this, but am quickly realizing that it's a constant battle. I am concluding that it will always be a struggle and to try to make the best of it. Something or some task that I used to easily complete now is much more challenging.
Yet really, we all have some "distractions" in life though. What are your distractions? I define a distraction as anything that gets our focus off of our goals in life. For me, I have many things that get my ultimate focus off of God. Brain injury or not, whatever distracts us from fulfilling God's purpose in each of our lives is truly a distraction. One that I will always fight against.
My issues with distraction and inattention have become more frequent than I realize since the brain surgery. Often ADHD and focus difficulties have a bad reputation in society and even in the world of medicine. The issue has gone from one extreme to the other in frequency of being diagnosed and treated. Over diagnosing and then not treating.....the extremes go back and forth. Somehow I believe that the patients get lost in the midst. I think this has been the case for me until recently.
I think in my case (and in a lot of patients) that attention issues are the last thing to receive attention. For me, it has been an afterthought. Instead of noticing that my attention problems are the likely cause of many other symptoms, we treat it the exact opposite. (I will keep you updated as to how this progresses.) :)
How does this tie in with my mom you ask? She struggles with the basics of a computer. I mean the REAL BASICS! For example, where to type the "www line" as she says. She was having difficulty signing into her email account on her new computer, so I had her describe for me what she was seeing. Instead of automatically noticing what you and I would see, she verbally told me what was getting her attention first. Her descriptions were interesting.
Picture with me the signon screen of a major email sight like yahoo, gmail, hotmail, etc. We think that it is clearly obvious what to do, but not to my mom. She describes for me what she sees on the monitor. "I see a "Web Search" and then a blank white space.", "Well, a blinking red box telling me about a membership for....." , and "I see some buttons that say games, TV, shopping....". So many distractions!!
It was quite awhile before I got her to ignore each of the pop-ups, flashing ads, etc., and to find the two little boxes that said "user name and password" next to them. :) By the time I verbally helped her to carefully type her email address and password clicked "log in", 45 minutes had passed. After it was over, she was worn out, I was happily relieved, and it caused me to reflect on the irony of it.
For someone like myself with a brain injury, distractions are constant. I used to be a very focused and attentive person, but now I am easily sidetracked. I am learning over the years tricks to help with this, but am quickly realizing that it's a constant battle. I am concluding that it will always be a struggle and to try to make the best of it. Something or some task that I used to easily complete now is much more challenging.
Yet really, we all have some "distractions" in life though. What are your distractions? I define a distraction as anything that gets our focus off of our goals in life. For me, I have many things that get my ultimate focus off of God. Brain injury or not, whatever distracts us from fulfilling God's purpose in each of our lives is truly a distraction. One that I will always fight against.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Light bulb moment
Occasionally, I have a light bulb moment. Ok, frequently. Recently I noticed how much I was spending at the grocery store for one person and came to the conclusion that something needed to change. My family and some friends have been wanting me to become a part of a meal program to help me lose weight. I'm anti-diet, so that suggestion went nowhere. Well, I now see it as a positive decision, because I finally saw it from a brain injury perspective. Anything that helps my brain gets a thumbs up from me.
Having my meals ready to eat is pricey but worth the cost. With my brain injury it has been difficult to plan and cook meals. What used to take me no effort at all before the brain surgery is now much more time and mental consuming. Buying, planning, cooking, and eating is a process I used to take for granted. It was like riding a bike. Since the brain injury my appetite has changed making it more frustrating to decide what to eat. Often this would result in making bad choices. My eating habits have gone from bad to worse. Cooking and preparing and most importantly the motivation to make that happen is a lot more work. I look at this new meal plan as a step in the right direction to bring consistency in my often scattered and disorganized world. I might lose weight in the process. Happy days!
Having my meals ready to eat is pricey but worth the cost. With my brain injury it has been difficult to plan and cook meals. What used to take me no effort at all before the brain surgery is now much more time and mental consuming. Buying, planning, cooking, and eating is a process I used to take for granted. It was like riding a bike. Since the brain injury my appetite has changed making it more frustrating to decide what to eat. Often this would result in making bad choices. My eating habits have gone from bad to worse. Cooking and preparing and most importantly the motivation to make that happen is a lot more work. I look at this new meal plan as a step in the right direction to bring consistency in my often scattered and disorganized world. I might lose weight in the process. Happy days!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
My Uncle Carl
There are some people in life that just radiate positivity. One of those people for me is my Uncle Carl. Unfortunately for me, I don't see him very often but when I do then I am guaranteed affirmation about my brain. What is great about it is that he does it naturally. It comes from his heart. Here's the scenario....
When I see him at a family gathering he always meets you with a smile or a hug. He is always positive. My Uncle Carl has his good share of health problems, but never talks about them and acts like he is in tip top shape. :) The first thing out of his mouth is asking about how YOU are. He is always thinking of others.
What I love about my Uncle Carl is that every time I see him and when all others are embarking on only the regular salutations, he is keeping life real. He says, "You know, Emy, every time I see you and think of your brain surgery and recovery, I can't help but thank God. You are an amazing miracle!"
That's my Uncle Carl. I love him tons! Whenever I get discouraged about something with my brain health, I think of him. We all need cheerleaders. We all are called to be a cheerleader to someone else. What kind of cheerleader am I being to the people in my life? What about you?
When I see him at a family gathering he always meets you with a smile or a hug. He is always positive. My Uncle Carl has his good share of health problems, but never talks about them and acts like he is in tip top shape. :) The first thing out of his mouth is asking about how YOU are. He is always thinking of others.
What I love about my Uncle Carl is that every time I see him and when all others are embarking on only the regular salutations, he is keeping life real. He says, "You know, Emy, every time I see you and think of your brain surgery and recovery, I can't help but thank God. You are an amazing miracle!"
That's my Uncle Carl. I love him tons! Whenever I get discouraged about something with my brain health, I think of him. We all need cheerleaders. We all are called to be a cheerleader to someone else. What kind of cheerleader am I being to the people in my life? What about you?
Friday, March 12, 2010
Auras!!
I'm so glad yesterday is over. It was a bad seizure day. I had lots of auras. It reminded me of the old days of having seizures every day. I was very lethargic all day from them. Ok, more than my normal. :) HA There was no cause for them yesterday like usual when I have forgotten my meds. I think the new meds just aren't working. This leads me to my latest soap box.
My "latest" idea -which is a bad one I will admit - is to get rid of all my meds and start all over. I think they are either not effective, causing too many side effects, or having a negative impact on the other meds. Frustrating. I can't help but want to just throw them all out and start over.
I know it is a bad idea. The neuro tech in me says it is a ridiculous theory, but it is what the patient in me really wants to do. When I feel like I did yesterday yet still take all the meds I do, it is frustrating. I have to force myself to take my meds right now. Fortunately, I keep taking them because I despise seizures that much.
I don't care how mild the auras are, I will never get used to them. I hate them. They give me a horribly sick feeling in my stomach that I recognize immediately. I experience amazing relief when it goes away. I praise God that since the brain surgery it has never progressed into a full blown seizure. For this I will forever be grateful to my surgeons and doctors for giving my life back to me. Lastly, to my Lord Jesus and His protective shield over me during the many seizures that I have had in my lifetime. God's protection is amazing!
My "latest" idea -which is a bad one I will admit - is to get rid of all my meds and start all over. I think they are either not effective, causing too many side effects, or having a negative impact on the other meds. Frustrating. I can't help but want to just throw them all out and start over.
I know it is a bad idea. The neuro tech in me says it is a ridiculous theory, but it is what the patient in me really wants to do. When I feel like I did yesterday yet still take all the meds I do, it is frustrating. I have to force myself to take my meds right now. Fortunately, I keep taking them because I despise seizures that much.
I don't care how mild the auras are, I will never get used to them. I hate them. They give me a horribly sick feeling in my stomach that I recognize immediately. I experience amazing relief when it goes away. I praise God that since the brain surgery it has never progressed into a full blown seizure. For this I will forever be grateful to my surgeons and doctors for giving my life back to me. Lastly, to my Lord Jesus and His protective shield over me during the many seizures that I have had in my lifetime. God's protection is amazing!
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