Auras!!

I'm so glad yesterday is over. It was a bad seizure day. I had lots of auras. It reminded me of the old days of having seizures every day. I was very lethargic all day from them. Ok, more than my normal. :) HA There was no cause for them yesterday like usual when I have forgotten my meds. I think the new meds just aren't working. This leads me to my latest soap box.

My "latest" idea -which is a bad one I will admit - is to get rid of all my meds and start all over. I think they are either not effective, causing too many side effects, or having a negative impact on the other meds. Frustrating. I can't help but want to just throw them all out and start over.

I know it is a bad idea. The neuro tech in me says it is a ridiculous theory, but it is what the patient in me really wants to do. When I feel like I did yesterday yet still take all the meds I do, it is frustrating. I have to force myself to take my meds right now. Fortunately, I keep taking them because I despise seizures that much.

I don't care how mild the auras are, I will never get used to them. I hate them. They give me a horribly sick feeling in my stomach that I recognize immediately. I experience amazing relief when it goes away. I praise God that since the brain surgery it has never progressed into a full blown seizure. For this I will forever be grateful to my surgeons and doctors for giving my life back to me. Lastly, to my Lord Jesus and His protective shield over me during the many seizures that I have had in my lifetime. God's protection is amazing!